Beau Hunter

♥ It's now coming up to Beau's first Birthday. Not a day goes past where we don't think of him.
Thank you so much for everyone's support over the past year, I don't know where I'd be without you
xxx ♥


Our little boy Beau was born sleeping at 21 weeks gestation on the 9th April 2008 due to placental
abruption.

We found out at 19 weeks that we were having another little boy. The scan showed everything was fine
and he was perfectly healthy. He was going to be our third and final child to complete our family.

On the morning of the 6th April 2008 I was working at a stables when I slipped on a ramp that was
covered in ice. I fell flat onto my stomach and smacked my chin. As there was no appointed first
aider I had to drive myself to hospital where they struggled to find his heartbeat but eventually
detected it on an emergency scan so I was sent home.

As the day went on I became increasingly worried that I couldn't feel him move like he usually did.
I stayed up all night, drank cold drinks but I still felt nothing. I think I knew at that point he
was gone but I didn't want to admit it to myself so I kept a glimmer of hope that he was just
sleepy.

The next morning I rang up the hospital who asked me to come in straight away. I was sat in a room
where they tried to listen for is heartbeat. The midwife rushed out of the room and once again I was
having to have an emergency ultrasound. That was when I was told, 'I'm afraid it's bad news'. It was
like the world had crashed around me. I knew the fall had caused his death but didn't want to admit
it to myself.

I was given a tablet and sent home for two days before I had to go back in to give birth to our
little boy. Those two days I spent in a dream that this wasn't happening to me. After all this was
always something that happened to other people wasn't it?

I cried on the way to the hospital that day and Beau Hunter was born on the 9th April 2008 weighing
12ozs. He was 28cms long and had dark brown hair. Tests done after he was born indicated that his
death was caused by an impact to the womb which caused a placental abruption. We were sent away from
the hospital with his memorial book and a lock of his hair. No parent should ever have to go through
that.

Life since Beau left us has not been easy. We are currently involved in a legal case against the
stables where I worked for not providing a safe working place and not having an appointed first
aider on the premises. Weirdly, I have never heard from the manager of the stables since the day of
my fall. I think that in itself shows where the guilt lies. Hopefully we can get some justice for
our little boy whom was wanted so so much.

There's not a day that goes by when I don't think of Beau and he will always and forever be our
third child.

An Angel Never Dies

♥ Don’t let them say I wasn’t born,♥
That something stopped my heart
I felt each tender squeeze you gave,
I’ve loved you from the start.

♥ Although my body you can’t hold ♥
It doesn’t mean I’m gone
This world was worthy, not of me
God chose that I move on.

♥ I know the pain that drowns your soul,♥
What you are forced to face
You have my word, I’ll fill your arms,
Someday we will embrace.

♥ You’ll hear that it was meant to be, ♥
God doesn’t make mistakes
But that wont soften your worst blow,
Or make your heart not ache.

♥ I’m watching over all you do, ♥
Another child you’ll bear
Believe me when I say to you,
That I am always there.

♥ There will come a time, I promise you,♥
When you will hold my hand,
Stroke my face and kiss my lips
And then you’ll understand.

♥ Although I’ve never breathed your air,♥
Or gazed into your eyes
That doesn’t mean I never was,
An Angel never dies.


♥ If tears could build a stairway
And memories were a lane
We would walk right
up to Heaven
And bring you back again.....
No farewell words were spoken
No time to say goodbye
You were gone
before we knew it
And only God knows why......
Our hearts still ache in sadness
And secret tears still flow
What it meant to lose you
No one will ever know..... ♥