| Location | Tunbridge Wells |
| Age | 0 |
| Cause of Death | Still Birth |
| Date of Birth | 09/04/2008 |
| Date of Death | 09/04/2008 |
| Visitors | 4,008 since 12/04/2008 |
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♥ It's now coming up to Beau's first Birthday. Not a day goes past where we don't think of him.
Thank you so much for everyone's support over the past year, I don't know where I'd be without you
xxx ♥
Our little boy Beau was born sleeping at 21 weeks gestation on the 9th April 2008 due to placental
abruption.
We found out at 19 weeks that we were having another little boy. The scan showed everything was fine
and he was perfectly healthy. He was going to be our third and final child to complete our family.
On the morning of the 6th April 2008 I was working at a stables when I slipped on a ramp that was
covered in ice. I fell flat onto my stomach and smacked my chin. As there was no appointed first
aider I had to drive myself to hospital where they struggled to find his heartbeat but eventually
detected it on an emergency scan so I was sent home.
As the day went on I became increasingly worried that I couldn't feel him move like he usually did.
I stayed up all night, drank cold drinks but I still felt nothing. I think I knew at that point he
was gone but I didn't want to admit it to myself so I kept a glimmer of hope that he was just
sleepy.
The next morning I rang up the hospital who asked me to come in straight away. I was sat in a room
where they tried to listen for is heartbeat. The midwife rushed out of the room and once again I was
having to have an emergency ultrasound. That was when I was told, 'I'm afraid it's bad news'. It was
like the world had crashed around me. I knew the fall had caused his death but didn't want to admit
it to myself.
I was given a tablet and sent home for two days before I had to go back in to give birth to our
little boy. Those two days I spent in a dream that this wasn't happening to me. After all this was
always something that happened to other people wasn't it?
I cried on the way to the hospital that day and Beau Hunter was born on the 9th April 2008 weighing
12ozs. He was 28cms long and had dark brown hair. Tests done after he was born indicated that his
death was caused by an impact to the womb which caused a placental abruption. We were sent away from
the hospital with his memorial book and a lock of his hair. No parent should ever have to go through
that.
Life since Beau left us has not been easy. We are currently involved in a legal case against the
stables where I worked for not providing a safe working place and not having an appointed first
aider on the premises. Weirdly, I have never heard from the manager of the stables since the day of
my fall. I think that in itself shows where the guilt lies. Hopefully we can get some justice for
our little boy whom was wanted so so much.
There's not a day that goes by when I don't think of Beau and he will always and forever be our
third child.
An Angel Never Dies
♥ Don’t let them say I wasn’t born,♥
That something stopped my heart
I felt each tender squeeze you gave,
I’ve loved you from the start.
♥ Although my body you can’t hold ♥
It doesn’t mean I’m gone
This world was worthy, not of me
God chose that I move on.
♥ I know the pain that drowns your soul,♥
What you are forced to face
You have my word, I’ll fill your arms,
Someday we will embrace.
♥ You’ll hear that it was meant to be, ♥
God doesn’t make mistakes
But that wont soften your worst blow,
Or make your heart not ache.
♥ I’m watching over all you do, ♥
Another child you’ll bear
Believe me when I say to you,
That I am always there.
♥ There will come a time, I promise you,♥
When you will hold my hand,
Stroke my face and kiss my lips
And then you’ll understand.
♥ Although I’ve never breathed your air,♥
Or gazed into your eyes
That doesn’t mean I never was,
An Angel never dies.
♥ If tears could build a stairway
And memories were a lane
We would walk right
up to Heaven
And bring you back again.....
No farewell words were spoken
No time to say goodbye
You were gone
before we knew it
And only God knows why......
Our hearts still ache in sadness
And secret tears still flow
What it meant to lose you
No one will ever know..... ♥
I stood by your bed last night
I came to have a peep,
I could see that you were crying
and you found it hard to sleep,
I whispered to you softly
as you brushed away a tear,
its me I havn't left you, i'm well
i'm fine, i'm here,
I was close to you a breakfast
I watched you pour your tea,
you were thinking of the many times
your hands reached out to me,
I was with you at the shops today
you're arms were getting sore,
I longed to take your parcels
I wish I could do more,
I was with you at my grave today
you tend it with such care,
I want to reassure you, that i'm not
lying there,
I walked with you towards the house
as you fumbled for your key,
I gently put my hand on you
I smiled and said 'its me'
you looked so very tired
and sank into a chair,
I tried so hard to let you know
that I was standing there,
its possible for me to be
so near to you every day,
to say to you with certainty
I never went away,
you sat there very quietly then smiled
I think you knew,
in the stillness of the evening
I was very close to you,
now the day is over.....I smile
and watch you yawning,
and say good night, god bless,
i'll see you in the morning,
and when the time is right for you
to cross the brief divide,
i'll rush across to greet you
and we'll stand side by side,
I have so many things to show you
there is so much for you to see,
be patient, live your journey out
then come home to be with me.
Love to you and your family, from Vicky xxx
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My thoughts are with you and your family always xxx
Twinlin Star xxx
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Love from Vicky xxx
Hi, Im so sorry for your loss.
I think I may have seen you on B&B.
My love and thoughts are with Beau, and your mummy and daddy.
Cal
xx
Heavens Playground xxx
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There’s a playground up in Heaven
Where all the children go
It’s a place that’s full of laughter
Unlike this world here below
There’s a playground up in Heaven
Where all our angels play
And the hearts there are so happy
Unlike our hearts feel today
There’s a garden up in Heaven
Where the roses blossom still
While below it feels like winter
All the angels feel no chill
In that garden up in Heaven
You will never find a tear
How we wish we could be with them
Or we still had them down here
There’s no crying in that playground
Just their happy faces there
There’s no pain and there’s no heartache
There’s no illness or despair
They’re too busy with their playing
They’re too happy making friends
It’s their parents wanting answers
And their broken hearts to mend
As they play in Heaven’s playground
All our little angels sing
They don’t question why they’re up there
They don’t ask for anything
All our children play together
In that playground in the sky.
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Love vicky xx
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Our hearts are truly broken
Our tears they fall like rain
We wish to see you one more time
To ease this awful pain
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We know that you're in heaven
And in heaven you shall remain
A very special angel
Until we meet again
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Thoughts today, Memories forever
Angela (Christopher-John Rowe) Mum
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:(
sleeptight little one.
the best are always taken 1st.
have fun on ur cloud and look down on ur mummy daddy and siblings! xxx
Someone who cares
You never said I'm leaving
You never said good-bye
You were gone before I knew it
And only God knew why
A million times we've needed you,
A million times we've cried.
If love alone could've saved you,
You never would have died.
In life we loved you dearly,
In death we love you still.
In our hearts you hold a place,
No one else will ever fill.
It broke our hearts to lose you,
But you didn't go alone.
Part of us went with you,
The day God took you home.
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